pyrrhocorax: a furret has a pink flower behind her ear (Default)
( Sep. 15th, 2014 03:23 pm)
* in august I started a new medicine that made me ill. this is obviously the defining theme of 2014 for me. no one has ever got ill from it before so I am making medical history, yaaaaaaay. I stopped being so ill when I stopped taking it though so at least it did not permanent damage.

* I FINALLY heard back from the gender identity clinic that I contacted LAST NOVEMBER. they apologised for the delay but did not explain it. I'm on a waiting list now which is better than being in a void of nothingness like before.

* something cool that happened a while back but I didn't mention is that we got solar panels put on the roof. the water is always hot now and it is lovely.

* it bothers me how no one in tomodachi life has any goddamn ears.
The weather is really looking up a bit here. I got a new bird feeder from the RSPB and lots of birds have been visiting, including sparrows, chaffinches, bullfinches, a tree creeper, and a greenfinch! I haven't seen some of these guys in years, so it's really nice. Unfortunately the squirrel also likes it and has bitten off some of the perches in his quest for delicious bird seed. >:[ He's also snapped two different branches with his weight. SQUIRREL, YOU DON'T NEED ANY MORE SEED. YOU ARE FAT ENOUGH.

I'm kind of on a quest myself, a quest to make more friends. I don't really have any friends locally (they all either dumped me when I got ill or became drunk awful losers or aren't here anymore) and I have very few on the internet (they either turned out to be jerks or went offline and haven't been heard from since). I'm kind of lonely (understatement) but I'm also REALLY BAD at making friends (also an understatement). I'm awkward at starting conversation because I'm never sure if I'm being pushy or annoying the other person. The when we are loosely connected, I'm frightened to turn up the friendship heat because OMG WHAT IF THEY SECRETLY HATE ME. THEN there's the fact that I have quite high standards for a friend on a...moral basis I guess. A little bit of predjudice goes a long way to make me not want to be around you. And then there's the big one, which is that I'm kind of a crap friend prospect. I'm not around a lot, I'm always whining about my problems, I forget to use my IM, and I have bunches of mental issues that I suspect make me look like a total freak.

BUT! I have been trying. I've signed up to some dreamwidth communities, and though the seem to be mostly dead, I can try to revive them. My hateful metal health worker is doing something useful for once and looking into a local art group for me. I'm looking for art exchange communities to join. And I'm going to try to track down some of the people I miss the most using my Internet Detective Skillz.

Plz to be working, internet detective skillz, I really am lonely :(

(Though if you're reading this, THANK YOU FOR BEING AWESOME ILU I just want more friends, you know?)
pyrrhocorax: a furret has a pink flower behind her ear (Default)
( Apr. 15th, 2010 02:28 am)
Okay, so I have been having serious trouble keeping up with lj lately (and everything else too I guess) so I've decided to cut some people from my friendslist. I picked out the people whose entries I regularly read and cut everyone else. I really didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings, but I only cut people I seldom talk to anyway so I hope nobody's upset by this. I'm just not able to deal with so much information at once anymore.


So many people I know have been having a hard time lately and I've been totally unsupportive. I'm sorry you guys, you deserve better and I really hope life starts giving you more of the good stuff.
Oh Christmas, how I hate the way you happen in the middle of winter. If I lived in the tropics this totally wouldn't be a problem. Anyway, christmas is on the way and I go cards etc. to do tablet has finally died. It was staggering along okay, but now you have to rub it vigorously with the pen for a minute before it will respond at all, and if you take the pen off for more than a few seconds it looses the connection again. Maybe a last ditch reinstall will fix it buuuuuut I don't think so. So if you were expecting your digital picture finished for christmas, it's probably gonna be more like february. Sorry :<

You know what stupid thing annoys me? When people get adoptable pets that have "good" and "evil" final forms, name them after a charcater that is clearly either good or evil, and then don't rig the feeding to make sure they end up the right alignment. This is vey seriuos business! You could end up with a good Darth Sidious and a bad Princess Leia! THE ENTIRE FABRIC OF REALITY IS IN DANGER HERE

Also meme from Kentrin:
"Reply to this post, and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then put this in your own journal, and spread the love."

ALSO ALSO I has your free arts from the meme done, but my sketchbook is in the airing cupboard after a tragically hilarious spittake accident.
How the hell do you keep your best friend who you see every day from finding out you are having hot sex with her fiance on a semi-regular basis?!?!? )
In other news, there are two resons I am buying Pokemon Diamond: 1)Tradition and 2)Sheimi
I just can't get that excited about it otherwise. I think it's Hikari.