pyrrhocorax: a furret has a pink flower behind her ear (Default)
( Jan. 31st, 2015 03:52 pm)
* I FINALLY GOT AN APPOINTMENT AT THE GENDER IDENTITY CLINIC!!! I have been waiting since november 2013.

* I got my secret stantler gift! it's called The Acorn and it's about Shaymin. it's a crossover with the Hobbit films, which I haven't seen but I know the basic plot of. I drew this, and the person who got it seemed pleased so that's good.

* so GIC right. well. it didn't go so good. the psych I saw was insistent that gender was all about performing as either male or female in public and so a) I had to try to live and pass as male if I wanted help and b) as I don't go out much I don't really qualify for help as if a Rax has dysphoria in the woods no one hears it cry. on the plus side! my gp has been super helpful and recommended a surgeon who would do top surgery (which is all I'm really after) privately. I could pay for it with my inheritance from my grandparents, and I wouldn't have to argue with ignorant people who trigger my PTSD about whether my gender exists or not.

* he also thought I have asperger's? which I'm taking with a whole box of salt seeing as his evidence was things like "likes star trek" and "likes things to be lined up straight". still, my brother has it and my dad probably does so maybe? eh, it's not like it changes anything one way or the other.

* and he thought star trek and doctor who were interchangeable! I mean, AS IF. but enough about him I am trying to put it behind me.

* my mother needs an emergency hip replacement :( it's been bad for about two years but now it's suddenly accelerated and she needs it within a month really. it's all very safe and routine and everything but naturally I'm mad scared because HOSPITAL. I would appreciate if those of you who do prayers or vibes or things of those sort could aim a few in her direction because I can't really do anything else.

* my new purple fluffy jumper I got for my birthday is so warm and fluffy I haven't felt cold at all even though it has been snowing! mind you I haven't actually been outside much. but the daffodils are coming up and that's nice.

* I love being healthy enough to study!!! I love being healthy enough to draw!!! please based shaymin let this continue!!!
I'm doing january and february together because I was basically dead for most of them both and theat sucked. at the vey end of february I increased my clomipramine dose and it has been like the sun coming out, goddamn. unfortunately I can't keep increasing it indefinitely so I'm going to try and take it down a step again when the weather is nicer and I can get out more tro prepare for next winter when I'll have to raise it again. I hate england and english weather so much I could scream.

I finally gave up on my book on the Riemann hypothesis and took it back to the library. it was just a sea of conflicting metaphors and anecdotes about the mathmaticians' personal lives, and basically no explanation of the maths itself. and it did the whole "the mysteries of the primes ~drove people to madness~" thing that I hate so much. I have a new one now which has good reviews on amazon so I hope it will be better.

I started playing gpxplus again while I was too ill to do anything useful. I've decided to name my Shaymin after Louise. now I just need to get the summoning item.

that's it I guess. I hope march is an improvement.
So that list eh.

*Teadragon imp picture
*Cial starpirate picture
* on that note, find an old cookie cutter screw that, I'll just use a knife and a template. I made the first batch but they turned out too sloppy and lost their shape so I'ma do another lot. GUYS, YOU WILL GET BISCUITS. SOMEDAY.
*Kali picture
*find goddamn Vesna ref
*do better Vesna ref once I've found the old one so I know how her stupid arm things go
*finish example icons for hopeful moneeeyzzz
*finish star wars character refs
*Vesna pic 1
*Vesna pic 2 (screw you vesna)
*Em fanart
*Metrazol pic
*Marisuu pic
*blue lantern furret
*nekkid Soshika pic for Kilo
*shaymin pic
*pokemon art meme
*sims 2 cc stuff
*scan older stuff in and finally send it to the people it was for etc.
*DO NOT start anything new I mean it this time no seriously don't
*errrr, peacock dragon
*and deryckak's christmas present

...yeah. Sorry, people who are waiting for stuff, things have been sucking like a black hole around here recently. I came down with another snot bug. Mum is really not well and I'm the only one who seems to notice when she's going into a down phase. I dunno, either I'm an empath or these people have skin like rhinos. And by these people I mean my father. My new doctor went on holiday for two weeks, and then when she came back she was ill, so I'm just flopping about like an old dishcloth and being pathetically grateful for all the music people have uploaded, particularly Deryckak <3

Someone should start a sabrous rp on tegaki. That would be awesome. The rps on tegaki at the moment are either dressing room style things (bleh) or SUPA ELITE (help). Plus it would be advertising. And stuff. I'M ILL, WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME.
pyrrhocorax: a furret has a pink flower behind her ear (Default)
( Feb. 19th, 2007 10:27 pm)
I just got into my sixth form of choice after the most TERRIFYING INTERVIEW EVA.

Nice Lady: So, why do you want to join our sixth form?
Nice Lady: Okay then.

I've been on my new shiny medicine for almost a week now. I'm not sure about it. In some ways it's better, in some ways worse. VAGUE. It makes my head really fuzzy and blurred though which is not great.

I have a knee deep pile of art which I need to finish and upload. OR PERHAPS I'll just go play mystery dungeon and goof off. God I can't wait till I can get an Arcanine oh boy oh boy. I already have Voltorb and Scyther so that just leaves Koffing, Gyarados and Haunter . LOCK UP YOUR DAUGHTERS NOW THE GANG IS BACK IN TOWN.
Shrink day today. I swear this woman is a witch doctor in disguise. I'm not going again if she doesn't start producing concrete techniques which do not include "visualising my negative emotions as a separate entity" which is not only obviously false but ludicrously unhelpful. I think wax dolls might actually be more effective, and definitely more enjoyable. The NHS is a dark cult anyway: blood-sucking nurses, voodoo phychiatrists and I suspect my surgeon was a were-stoat. (He had a sort of furtive, whiskery look, like he was going to dive under a bench any minute and peer at you from safety.)

But I did go and see the ducks on the way home :3
Turns out I've been overdosing myself on Citalopram for days, which explains the agitation and mood swings. A MYSTERY SOLVED which is good because it was pretty scary.

Today is a glorious day, however, because it is International Particle Day. This is the best holiday of the year and if you enter into any sort of association with me I will force you to celebrate it. It is better than Sock Day even.

This year I was a quark, Oto was a positron but not a very good one, Mothership was a right-handed neutrino, and Dad was the Higgs field because he felt like hanging around in a sticky sort of way slowing everything down.

If there is some kind of award for being a huge nerd I have surely won it at a stroke.