pyrrhocorax: a furret has a pink flower behind her ear (Default)
2015-09-01 03:03 pm
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I did the plant quiz!

here is plant personality quiz. I think mine’s pretty accurate (though my singing voice is...not great).

flower flower tree )

also, I’m in france! the weather here in Troyes is actual summer weather, unlike england where august was indistinguishable from late october. I’ll try and take some photos!
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2015-07-01 10:23 pm

review of june

* I'm skipping ahead because basically nothing good happened in april and may. I was ill, it sucked, cameron was re-elected, etc.

* I went to Harrow to go to a specialist gastrointestinal hospital. it was next to the biggest hospital I've ever been in, it had it's own grocery shop! the doctor has me lined up for an MRI just in case I have the world's least obvious case of Crohn's and some more hydrogen breath tests in order to get more information on the bacterial overgrowth. it's highly unlikely I actually have Crohn's but I'm scared anyway because it would be so awful if I did.

* Ocado got these delicious coconut milk ice lollies in and they're delicious. I said delicious twice but they are.

* PHILAE WOKE UP!!! good job space friend. I was very sad when it landed in a hole but now it seems like that might actually have been a good thing in a way, because it was protected. space is a harsh place for a little probe!

* I got my first ever proper sunburn! I've never got one before because my skin tans very easily, but I guess it'd been weakened by the rash I had earlier this year, or just not enough sunlight? either way I got burnt. I'm going to be more careful now and wear sunscreen. I sound like I'm whining about this but honestly I actually feel quite chuffed, like I got to join a club.

* I'm so pumped for the animal crossing home designer game!!! I like to give the animals houses that match their personalities anyway and it always bugs me how they won't put things on tables and arrange things in a stupid way, but now I can make them all cute rooms! plus I will be able to have all the furniture from new leaf that I've been longing for (CAKE DISPLAYS)(I don't have new leaf because I am forever loyal to my wild world villagers). and I can be less frighteningly pale too!

* I want a wii u to play Yoshi's wooly world. I wanted one before but now it's a BURNING NEED. I'm gonna get the amiibo too even if I don't get the wii u because HE'S MADE OF YARN!!! YARN YOSHI!!!!!!
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2015-04-25 02:30 pm

review of march

* my mum got her hip replaced! she didn't qualify for a replacement before even though it's been bad for ages because she's too young but it got really bad and then they had to. so she can walk about again and climb the stairs and go out! we're gonna go to birdworld to celebrate. (birdworld is an aviary with some other animals and next door is an aquarium.) there's a lot of walking to see the whole thing though so we need to train up, because I'm super unfit too. but it's spring and there will be BABBY BIRDES!!!

* I stopped taking so much acid represent because apparently low acidity can really make SIBO worse and it seems to be helping without making me so acid I get burns? which is good. I've been super ill lately (hence my not being around) and I want so much to actually get stuff done this year.

* I'm so excited about pi, I love pi, I'm getting to the stage where it's allllll coming together and pi is so important and magical. happy pi day. also I ate a pie and it was delicious.

* I've been drawing a bit more using colours!3d on my 3ds, it's easier than getting my tablet set up and arranged and all. you can see my pictures here or I post them to my art tumblr eventually. colours! is basically deviantart in 3d, there's many children and many drama, but there's some amaaaazingly talented people.

* the spring is here at last and I can sit in the garden and listen to next door's power tools. but when he goes inside it's nice! the plum tree is in blossom and the pigeons are going crazy for the fruit...bud..things......anyway they're getting their snack on.

* I hope everyone is okay and hopefully better than okay? I'm sorry for being so scarce lately. how is the spring in your part of the world?
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2015-01-31 03:52 pm

review of january

* I FINALLY GOT AN APPOINTMENT AT THE GENDER IDENTITY CLINIC!!! I have been waiting since november 2013.

* I got my secret stantler gift! it's called The Acorn and it's about Shaymin. it's a crossover with the Hobbit films, which I haven't seen but I know the basic plot of. I drew this, and the person who got it seemed pleased so that's good.

* so GIC right. well. it didn't go so good. the psych I saw was insistent that gender was all about performing as either male or female in public and so a) I had to try to live and pass as male if I wanted help and b) as I don't go out much I don't really qualify for help as if a Rax has dysphoria in the woods no one hears it cry. on the plus side! my gp has been super helpful and recommended a surgeon who would do top surgery (which is all I'm really after) privately. I could pay for it with my inheritance from my grandparents, and I wouldn't have to argue with ignorant people who trigger my PTSD about whether my gender exists or not.

* he also thought I have asperger's? which I'm taking with a whole box of salt seeing as his evidence was things like "likes star trek" and "likes things to be lined up straight". still, my brother has it and my dad probably does so maybe? eh, it's not like it changes anything one way or the other.

* and he thought star trek and doctor who were interchangeable! I mean, AS IF. but enough about him I am trying to put it behind me.

* my mother needs an emergency hip replacement :( it's been bad for about two years but now it's suddenly accelerated and she needs it within a month really. it's all very safe and routine and everything but naturally I'm mad scared because HOSPITAL. I would appreciate if those of you who do prayers or vibes or things of those sort could aim a few in her direction because I can't really do anything else.

* my new purple fluffy jumper I got for my birthday is so warm and fluffy I haven't felt cold at all even though it has been snowing! mind you I haven't actually been outside much. but the daffodils are coming up and that's nice.

* I love being healthy enough to study!!! I love being healthy enough to draw!!! please based shaymin let this continue!!!
pyrrhocorax: A yellow salamander consort wearing robes, the Secret Wizard, smiles at you (secret wizard)
2014-12-31 05:06 pm

review of december

* this is embarrassing frankly but it turns out I have been accidentally poisoning (well not literally poisoning) myself since august. I've been having hot caramel syrup in my delicious chocolate oatmilk. unfortunately while the sugar used to make the caramel is sucrose which I can digest, when heated with water it forms a number of complex compounds and also separates into glucose and fructose, which I can't. this is chemistry's revenge on me for slighting it.

* but now that I've stopped drinking it I should become somewhat healthier! and it only took me four months of fatalistic acceptance of decline before I wised up. moral of the story: trust nothing, especially not tasty things.

* I got the most adorable felt furret from Willow! I sort of want to hang it on the christmas tree but I don't have one due to not celebrating christmas. I have hung it by my bed instead and it watches me with its little button eyes. I need to take a photo of it so I can show you! I also got lots of tea and a letter with a bunny on. I need to remember to write back so this is an instruction to Future Rax: write back ya dingus.

* I also got an email from a family friend that I haven't spoken too since I was probably fourteen? anyway he's trans too and we're chatting which is nice. I like talking, I need to remember that. talking can be fun and enjoyable.

* I drew a picture for secret stantler. I got a perfect fit prompt, basically "cute furrets". I CAN DO THAT. I did a paper textured thing that makes it look more exciting than just flat colours and was intended to be less work than shading but actually might have been more...
still it looks okay to me and I think it's equivalent to a thousand words of fiction which is what was required. I hope it goes down well with the recipient.

* I listened to this on repeat a lot. and this.
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2014-12-08 04:40 pm

review of november

* can movember be over yet please

* I got a goat for my birthday! both a soft fluffy goat for cuddling and an live hungry goat for eating scrub on wildlife reserves and thus protecting valuable chalk grassland habitat. the big goat (who I only really "adopted" a share in) is called Cassie and the little goat is called Cassis because puns are cute. Cassie is white with one pinkish horn and one grey horn, while Cassis is white all over and wears a tiny goat coat to prevent me spilling chocolate oat milk on her (again).

* Olivia moved back to Bigsock and put her house in the spot I least wanted it but OH WELL I guess I will have to rearrange the flowerbeds.

* I got a jigsaw (not really hard enough but my aunt didn't know I am actually a god of jigsaws) and some nice warm purple clothes and a book about maths that I got halfway through a year ago but had to return to the library. the book is really interesting but I don't think anyone who reads this really wants to hear about set theory so I will spare you.

* I hate getting older and older without accomplishing anything. I want to go to university SO MUCH and learn and make friends and just have a semi-normal life. maybe one day. at least I don't look old I guess?

* I don't want to end this on a downer. lately I've been making more effort to talk to people I like and I think it's going quite well? I've been having problems with skype and so if you want to talk to me it's best to do it through pidgin (which you can use with msn and aim and other instant messengers as I'm sure you know). or email me or message here or something! I like to talk to you, person reading this!
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2014-11-13 04:36 pm

review of september/october

* the problem with reviewing months after they have ended is that by that point any events have faded in memory and it seems pointless to dredge them up again, therefore I do not make the review posts at all. in future I will write the post over a month as the events occur and only publish them at the month's end.

* I have those horizontal scores in my nails from this summer that signify a period of extreme disruption of health. I fell oddly proud of them, like they are medals of war.

* what is pumpkin spice??? why are americans obsessed with it??? these are the questions we ask ourselves in the autumn. pumpkins are not spicy, they are boring wet squashes. why would you put pumpkin in a latte???

* that's literally all I can remember
pyrrhocorax: a furret has a pink flower behind her ear (Default)
2014-09-15 03:23 pm

review of august

* in august I started a new medicine that made me ill. this is obviously the defining theme of 2014 for me. no one has ever got ill from it before so I am making medical history, yaaaaaaay. I stopped being so ill when I stopped taking it though so at least it did not permanent damage.

* I FINALLY heard back from the gender identity clinic that I contacted LAST NOVEMBER. they apologised for the delay but did not explain it. I'm on a waiting list now which is better than being in a void of nothingness like before.

* something cool that happened a while back but I didn't mention is that we got solar panels put on the roof. the water is always hot now and it is lovely.

* it bothers me how no one in tomodachi life has any goddamn ears.
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2014-08-14 09:05 pm

review of July

* in our last thrilliing instalment, I was ill(er than usual). I continued to be ill in July! but I did manage to have a few nice days out in the sun. a picnic, a pud lunch, and a visit to Tillgate park to see the birds and other animals. there was a very chatty lorie who suprised me by creaking out "hellllo" from behind a clumo of bamboo, and a bull who constantly licked his two cows in an affectionate but sticky way. the harvest mice were as tiny as I remembered them and were making a new nest. I fed a nice goat and patted her head.

* a new medicine was prescribed to me that theorectically could make a big difference. it's a a mega-probiotic of the sort given to factory farm animals that might repopulate my small intestine.

* ...except that no one thought of the consequences of downing a metric tonne of bacteria while having the immune system of a tiny hysterical baby.

* so I spent most of July lying in bed naked covered in huge blisters and a rash and sores all over my gums and lips and with a fever. I ate a lot of ice.

* I also played a lot of Tomodachi Life! I didn't order it becuase of the whole "no homodachi" business but Nasus got a copy and lent it to me. it provided about the right level of entertainment to a person strung out on strong anithistamines. Rax in the game wears a hamster suit and is married to Aurora Walrus. the island currently has me, Nasus, Owl, all four Walruses (Mitik, Pakak, Kula, and Aurora), Mario Luigi and Peach, and Blathers and Celeste the owls from animal crossing. I'm trying to make Nook but he's a bit tricky to humanise.

* if anyone wants a free Tomodachi Life trial code we have three! I assume the version you would get would be the uk one? I don't know how it works.

* it seems like all I do on this journal is talk about how ill I've been but to be fair I don't really have much else going on in my life.
pyrrhocorax: a furret has a pink flower behind her ear (Default)
2014-08-07 09:36 pm

review of june

I'd combine this with july but it would get long.

* I had a surgical procedure (not technically an operation even though I was under general anaethetic) that everyone had hyped to be a game changer which totally wasn't. I was probably the least upset because I never believe in anything anymore anyway. I managed to make the whole thing worse by spilling a cup of near boiling water on my crotch shortly before having to head to the hospital but because I got the aloe vera on it quickly it actually wasn't a huge deal. I could tell everyone was proud of my timing though.

* my brother came to stay. he lost it (WHO COULD HAVE PREDICTED THAT), stuff happened, and now he is no longer allowed to come here. overall it's safer this way for all of us.

* the medicine I had to take before the s.p. made me pretty ill for the whole rest of the month so I didn't get out much at all. I did go to a nice nature reserve with lots of birdlife and a no dog policy! which is great because birds and dogs don't really mix and I am bird. I saw a common kingfisher for about the second time ever!

* I sent a letter to Willow and it was kind of fun! I would like to exchange letters with other people too. If you would like a letter, with some dumb pictures or some small light items like pokemon cards, please comment with your address. comments will of course be screened! my postal address is in the uk and I can send to anywhere, but not heavy or large things.
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2014-06-10 09:09 pm

review of May

* the defining event of May was my dear villager Olivia in animal crossing moving away. at first I was shocked but not unduly upset because I could just do a visit with Nasus, and she'd transfer over and could come back another time. however she did not turn up. some random other cat did. I was ridiculously upset because I've had Olivia since 2007, she was my first villager to move in to my town, and I thought she was lost. I was really down about it for two weeks or so. when the cat left a lion replaced her. after that I was sure she was gone. but! just a few days ago, the lion left and Olivia finally showed up! goodness knows what went wrong but now she's back I feel much better.

* I read on the internet that you shouldn't feed bread to ducks, you should feed them frozen peas instead (defrosted). but when I tried to feed the ducks peas they just looked down at them in confusion and then back at me. "where is our bread? what are these unappetising green things?" some of them tried the peas but dropped them immediately. the only person who ate them was a coot, maybe because it was hungry enough to try foods which are less delicious than bread. so the moral of the story is: we don't always want what's good for us.

* I'm stuck at a boss battle in m&l dream team. it's big massif in the dream world and I'm having trouble reading his patterns. I have to hoo up! I also chose a bunch of pokemon names so I can continue with Y.

* I wish I had an aserty keyboard with accents on. but also this one. a huge double keyboard. like an organ.
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2014-05-28 11:23 pm

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so I'm having another operation in two weeks. everyone is optimistic about it except me. I just hope I don't get MRSA this time.
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2013-11-03 12:19 pm
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my handsome pony husband and other stories

well my good intentions about posting every week sort of slipped while I was in France because I was so busy! but I am going back to it now because I am back in England and it is about ten degrees colder and there is nothing better to do.

I had a good time though! one of the things we went to was a discovery farm where you could pet and feed the animals. despite the awkwardness of being the only family there without a tiny child it was excellent, there were bunnies and loud geese and quiet ducks and lots of different varieties of sheep and donkeys and llamas and goats and EVERYBODY was hungry. I picked a lot of grass to feed the bunnies and they went totally crazy over it. they must have been bored of nothing but dry food :(

and we went to see some rock formations that look like organ pipes, which were nice but the real excitement was while we were walking there we met a wonderful black pony with the shortest possible legs and the roundest possible body and a messy mane and he was so perfect. I have so many pictures of the pony, he is my special pony and nothing will destroy our bond. he had nothing to graze on in his enclosure so we brought him grass and the next day carrots, and he was so excited he bit me twice but it was okay because I was wearing a jacket and the course of true love never did run smooth anyway.

and we went to an aquarium and to the beach lots and it was generally A Good Time. now I have to finish all the things I'm meant to do this year in the two months I have left so time to get busy.
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2013-10-01 07:40 pm

walrus wake-up walrus wake-up!

* so I am here in France now and the weather is eminently more reasonable! the Med is hella cold though.

* Perpignan seems to have more than its fair share of crying babies. or maybe the studio we are renting is on baby street? or maybe these things are sent to test me.

* currently I am mad because some complete wanker on the internet claims that people with more unusual phobias or triggers DELIBERATELY MANUFACTURED THEM for attention on tumblr. and someone I was goping to befriend is apparently friendly with him so, yeah. *crosses off to-befriend list* what a total tosspot.

* but! I have a delicious raspberry and rose flavoured drink so all is not lost. I wanted to get kiwi and banana too but it had fructose syrup in it :(
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2013-09-16 02:37 pm
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an alien with a brain like a doughnut

good morrow friends, it has been a while! I have been posting a lot more on my tumblr than here because as an environment it lends itself more to one-line brain burbles. but! that led to me abandoning anyone who still uses DW instead of tumblr. I have no idea how many of you there are actually reading this. if I haven't talked to you in a long time please feel free to talk to me on skype or here or anywhere really! I get lonely a lot now that I have the energy to be awake for reasonable hours but not enough to go to university yet.

the new plan is to post here once a week, even if it's just bullet points. so here are some bullet points:

* they are actually asterisks because I forgot the html for bullet points.

* I've been struggling with matrices recently. I'm fine as long as I stay calm but if I get distracted or confused the whole business is ruined and I have to start again at the beginning. I know it's not a real big deal because I can always just use a calculator but it makes me feel dumb when I take ages over one because I have to check every stage.

* it's sunny today for the first time in at least a week, which is nice.

* going back to france soon!!! probably for less than a month but it will have to do. just stuff like the roadsigns being the 'right' colours is going to be so nice.
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2013-01-08 04:09 pm

to-do list, 2013 edition

I've been seeing in the new year by sleeping near-constantly and feeling like death while awake so I've been putting of making any resolutions. Then I decided that I hate resolutions because they're so vague, "I will get fit", like HOW fit? If I make open ended resolutions like that I'm just going to beat myself up for not doing well enough. So instead I'm going to make some concrete goals that I want to get done before 2014.

* finish at least 5 pictures off picture list
* do at least five character refs
* reach next city in every pokemon game currently on the go
* get strong enough to do 10 proper push ups in a row without dying
* organise Buck's flowerbed
* do some maths every day, even if it's just going over stuff in my head
* figure out wtf is wrong with my laptop
* figure out wtf is wrong with minecraft forge
* don't cry over computers
* get started on transitioning stuff (weeps)
* make new icons for all tumblrs and dw
* draw at least five ask salamanders answers
* try to stay on top of freerice but don't get sick over it
* stop reading comics I don't enjoy
* set up paypal account
* organise sprawling pics folders into sleek new system
* do stupid breathing exercises every day ugh
* don't die

Welp that's a lot more than I expected OH WELL I GUESS WE'LL SEE
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2012-07-25 10:56 am
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I am wearing a shirt WITHOUT SLEEVES, that's how you can tell I'm on holiday

I am in France! I have been in France for more than three weeks but I neglected to say anything about it, mostly because I was really ill for a large chunk of that time. The weather here in Lot-et-Garonne is lovely and hot but there is NOTHING to do except caves, and I've done caves! And chateaux and old churches I guess but those are seldom really gripping. My French has got super bad as well. I guess I'll have to pick up a dictionary and start relearning words!

The best thing so far is a tiny soft fluffy wild boar plushy that I was given as a present, he is charming and I will post pictures of him when I can get them :)
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2012-06-15 02:00 pm

Disorganised lists are my speciality

1. I went to the dentist! I haven't been for like, five years so I was kind of nervous that they'd take on look at my teeth and back away screaming but actually they just told me to floss more. Had an awkward moment when they handed me my medical history to update and wanted to know all about my issuesTM but I just put down "and other stuff" which I think covers it.

2. Guess what, I have a super power and will shortly be joining the X-men. I was lying on a rug in the garden, with my ear to the rug, and then I began to hear a strange sort of squealing/creaking sound. I moved my head to another position and it stopped. So I moved it back and it started again. I was pretty intrigued so I got up and moved the rug and found my head had been ants nest! I CAN HEAR ANTS SHOUTING AT ME. None of them seemed hurt just cross with me. SORRY ANTS.

3. So much rain D: Roads are flooding and everything, this is not proper June weather. Dry winters and wet summers seems to be the new status quo though :/

4. Going to France in like two weeks, wheeeee!

5. Reading though the logs of this awesome RP I used to belong to when I played a marsupial snake alien lady and investigated mysterious situations. We ended after only a few sessions because Nazir, who ran it, got too ill, and I've missed it (and him) ever since. I hope you're still around somewhere out there buddy.
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2012-03-21 01:13 pm

I can never think of a subject line anyway.

The weather is really looking up a bit here. I got a new bird feeder from the RSPB and lots of birds have been visiting, including sparrows, chaffinches, bullfinches, a tree creeper, and a greenfinch! I haven't seen some of these guys in years, so it's really nice. Unfortunately the squirrel also likes it and has bitten off some of the perches in his quest for delicious bird seed. >:[ He's also snapped two different branches with his weight. SQUIRREL, YOU DON'T NEED ANY MORE SEED. YOU ARE FAT ENOUGH.

I'm kind of on a quest myself, a quest to make more friends. I don't really have any friends locally (they all either dumped me when I got ill or became drunk awful losers or aren't here anymore) and I have very few on the internet (they either turned out to be jerks or went offline and haven't been heard from since). I'm kind of lonely (understatement) but I'm also REALLY BAD at making friends (also an understatement). I'm awkward at starting conversation because I'm never sure if I'm being pushy or annoying the other person. The when we are loosely connected, I'm frightened to turn up the friendship heat because OMG WHAT IF THEY SECRETLY HATE ME. THEN there's the fact that I have quite high standards for a friend on a...moral basis I guess. A little bit of predjudice goes a long way to make me not want to be around you. And then there's the big one, which is that I'm kind of a crap friend prospect. I'm not around a lot, I'm always whining about my problems, I forget to use my IM, and I have bunches of mental issues that I suspect make me look like a total freak.

BUT! I have been trying. I've signed up to some dreamwidth communities, and though the seem to be mostly dead, I can try to revive them. My hateful metal health worker is doing something useful for once and looking into a local art group for me. I'm looking for art exchange communities to join. And I'm going to try to track down some of the people I miss the most using my Internet Detective Skillz.

Plz to be working, internet detective skillz, I really am lonely :(

(Though if you're reading this, THANK YOU FOR BEING AWESOME ILU I just want more friends, you know?)
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2011-10-21 08:12 pm

Who's number one now? LUIGI

In this comic (very jokey suicide warning I guess?) Reginald is basically me. Every so often when I'm just hanging about I'll make a sort of moaning noise, and that means I am remembering my past.

I have been trying to be a better person lately, and do more stuff for the world! I can't volunteer or anything so I've basically just been signing petitions on and playing Free Rice. Still at least it's something right?

In EXCELLENT news, we finally got a Wii! So I'm going to be KARTING THE NIGHT AWAY with my old buddies from the mushroom kingdom!